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Thursday, July 7, 2005
  8:40 pm



i'll state once more the whole "i've got a new journal" thing, because a lot of people don't seem to pay attention, even almost two months later.

access_

that is my journal. fifty-four entries later.

if i added you, add me back. if i didn't, you probably won't be added back if you add me. unless you comment or something.

that's all.

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This is annoying. I want
Sunday, May 29, 2005
  8:30 pm



This is annoying. I want to go home but Alana doesn't want to leave so I'm stuck here until she does. It's hot. I can't move. I want to leave.

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the end;
Saturday, May 14, 2005
  4:41 pm



i've had this journal for too long. i don't like the name anymore, and i need a change. it's time to move on.

so i made a new one.

access_

add me back if i've added you already, otherwise comment to be added.

yeah.

this journal will be inactive once i complete the ohter one.

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Saturday, May 14, 2005
  10:47 am



OH MY GOD SHUT UP MOM.

YOU GO ON AN ALMIGHTY BITCHFEST EVERY SATURDAY...


SHUT.


UP!!!

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Thursday, May 12, 2005
  11:55 pm

Mood: blank


It seems that this week has held more drama than any of the other weeks from the rest of the year combined.

- Some girl at our school got raped during prom weekend.
- Karyn and Elyse drama, which I'm not even going into because I've exhausted it all trying to explain everything. And I've talked to Meg about it.
- The awkwardness grows in the little trio that is Alana, Mike, and I. Things are getting crazy, Alana is devastated, and I feel like I'm in the middle of the most awkward situation I've ever seen.
- Dorney Park is tomorrow and, after events tonight, I just don't feel like going. I know it'll cheer me up, but things just are...blah.
- I wrote Josh an apology note that I plan on giving him tomorrow, but I know I'm probably going to chicken out because that's what I do.
- I quit my job, and now I have no money and no income to supplement anything.
- I broke my iPod again, and now just the bottom of the screen works. Thank god I can still listen to it.
- I broke my cell phone, and it's annoying me to death. I have barely any use for it. I'm not even bringing it on the trip tomorrow.

Everything seems to be falling apart, but I'm trying my very hardest to keep it together.

at the end of our days, we'll escape.


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Phone Post
Thursday, May 12, 2005
  11:20 pm



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Thursday, May 12, 2005
  5:34 pm



So apparently I'm not trusted by what I thought were two of my best friends in the whole world. And I'm sure the third will hate me for it to. It does have to do with the previous entry. And now I don't know what to do, because apparently I'm the bad guy because I didn't do it.

I'm at a loss.

And they're hurt. They're hurt because someone else did something to them by using me. And I'm at fault? I'M at fault? Absolutely unfair.

Now I don't know what to do.

I guess the world was meant to fall away.

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Thursday, May 12, 2005
  5:22 pm



To Elyse, because you kept blocking me even though I tried to say something. Why don't you just READ it before doing that and talk things out like normal. Sheesh.

Let me just say this, before going back to my other SN. I told you, and I told Allie that I would rip Liz a new one. Which I do plan on doing so, because now I've lost two of what I considered to be best friends. But apparently that doesn't matter, because I'm to blame even though I wasn't involved in the situation. And now I'm sure Allie will hate me because of this, because I know this will get back to her too. This is absolutely ridiculous. Absolutely. But I honestly don't understand why, why why WHY I'm being blamed for something I didn't do. For taking your side in this. I WANTED to stay out of the situation, because I thought maybe Karyn should talk to Liz, but apparently that's not happening. And it's sad that it's come to the fact that you don't want to be my friend anymore because of something I didn't do. And I don't know what to say anymore, because that's all I can say. Now I just hope that you'll BELIEVE me instead of just thinking I'm a lying bastard. Which is completely unfair and UNTRUE. So there. I'm done. That's it.

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
  10:41 pm



I quit Build-A-Bear today.

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005
  4:03 pm



"hey kyle its 4:23 and you were supposed to be here at 4. give me a call as soon as you get this message."

oops. oh well.

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